Thursday was our last night together. I had rearranged my work schedule so that I stopped at 3:00 every day that week, and we spent the late afternoon and evenings eating all the foods we wanted, spending time with friends, snuggling, and fucking. The time leading up to this point had seemed to crawl by and fly like lightening simultaneously. Before I knew it, we were there… the eve of his departure.
I had finished ironing the last of his shirts and joined him on the couch. I was fresh from the shower, my hair still damp, and I wore my most softest, green dress with the plunging neckline. I felt raw and vulnerable, my emotions simmering a hairsbreadth below the surface.
“What would you like to do tonight?” he asked.
“What would you like to do?” I countered.
“I’m open to a variety of things. What do you think?”
“First I need to cry,” I said and felt a tear streak down my cheek. “After that’s out of the way, I’m open to whatever you want to do.”
“Let’s go upstairs, baby, and we’ll cry together.”
For the next half hour he held me as I sobbed on to his shoulder. He murmured our litany of assurances into my hair that I knew by heart. It had almost become a prayer between us–all the reasons why his relocation would be a great thing for us both. Eventually my tears dried, and I felt like I could function as a somewhat coherent human being again.
“So what are we going to do?” I asked.
“Remember how you asked for an enema scene a couple of weeks ago?”
I opened my mouth to reply and then thought better of it. A pro-domme had offered to give me a scene featuring an enema, with sir’s permission, but I had turned her down in favor of a relaxing massage for my owner. I was intrigued by the use of enemas in D/s scenes, not because of the enema itself, but because of the control exerted over the submissive. I found the idea of trying to control one’s natural bodily functions to please another titillating, and I had mentioned to sir that if I were going to do it, I would want my first experience to be with him.
Oh how those casual words had come back to haunt me.
“Instead of a water enema, I’m going to pee in your butt,” he added.
My mouth dropped open. “REALLY?”
“Yup,” he said. “Let’s get you into the bathroom.”
My mind was reeling as we emptied the bathroom of the scale, a footstool, and the bathmat. I couldn’t decide how I felt about it. Repulsed? I felt like I should have been more grossed out than I actually was. I mean, what was the proper response to a man telling you he wanted to pee in your butt? Part of me was interested, maybe even excited, and then a larger part of me was ashamed that I felt that way. I could feel my cheeks grow hot as he spread out an old beach towel on the bathroom floor.
“On your knees,” he said.
I assumed the position that I had hundreds of times before this night. Fucking in our bathroom was commonplace although our actions tonight were a first for us both. I tucked my toes under the ledge of the bathtub as he pushed my dress around my waist. He was already erect, the head of his cock pushing against the crack of my ass. The lube he applied was cool against my heated skin, and to my surprise, he slid into my pussy first. My first orgasm took me by storm, and I was forced to admit, if only to myself, that I was turned on. A second orgasm quickly followed the first, his strokes long and deep. As I tried to catch my breath, sir pulled out and slid into my anus. Suddenly I was gasping for an entirely different reason.
His rhythm changed when he began to concentrate on urinating. I didn’t feel him peeing exactly, but I noticed a full feeling beginning in my abdomen. His erection would relax slightly as he urinated and then stiffen again when he switched to fucking my asshole. I closed my eyes so that I no longer saw the geometric pattern on the linoleum and could concentrate more on the sensations that assailed me.
“I’m going to come,” he said, pushing deeper into me. I stilled as his body came to rest against my ass, instinctively tightening around him to keep everything inside.
“You can go sit on the toilet, but you can’t expel anything.”
I slowly got to my feet and gingerly walked over to the toilet, silently praying that I could hold it. I felt like I was trying to keep a water balloon inside me, and I was mortified that I might fail. I sat on the toilet, letting my dress drape between my thighs.
“What are you doing, baby?”
“May I go to the bathroom, Daddy?” I asked in a small voice.
I couldn’t help myself. I felt exposed and vulnerable, like a little girl sitting on the potty. I felt myself blush, and I couldn’t meet his eyes. There was no one else in the world that I trusted like sir, and even though I was uncomfortable with the intimacy, I also reveled in the sense of connection. I was willing to go to this unfamiliar territory, to push past my modesty and embarrassment, and bare myself according to his will. I felt little and powerful all at the same time..
“Look at me, babygirl, and use your words.” I could hear the grin in his voice, and when I finally looked up his expression was equal parts kindness and mischief.
“May I please…” My voice faded to a whisper. “…poop?”
His eyes went wide with mock surprise. “What do you want to do, Little Pookie?”
“Poop!” I exclaimed and buried my face in my hands. “Daddy, you’re embarrassing me!” I shrieked.
Sir laughed out loud then and gave me the OK. As my bowels released, I slumped in relief and felt sheepish. I couldn’t think of any other time when I felt so raw, so human.
“So what turned you on the most?” I finally asked, wanting to distract myself from being the center of attention.
“The thought that I could do this to a girl and that she would let me do it made me hot. What kind of dirty girl lets a guy pee in her? You let me pee in your butt, and you’re my girl. That was the biggest turn-on.”
My cheeks turned scarlet, but I was grinning too. His pleasure and satisfaction with the situation were almost palpable, and I felt an overwhelming sense of pride. I did that for him. On our last night together, I had given him a memory unique to any other experience we had in our collective sexual pasts. I was his girl, and I didn’t know of a better way to show it.
The rest of the night passed with good food, our favorite TV show, and more orgasms. As I fell asleep with his arms wrapped tight around me, he whispered, “I peed in your butt tonight.” I giggled, smiling into the darkness. It was the perfect ending to our last night.
If you would have asked me 8 years ago, when i started blogging that I would read a story like this and get aroused, I would have laughed. But that’s just what happened. Thanks for sharing such an intimate evening with us.
Thank you SO much for commenting! My first question to Nikki was, “is this too gross??” What a relief that I didn’t scare of our readers.
Thank you for reassuring me!
I may not be a good test case, however, I’ve become much more inclusive over the past few years. I can run this by my dad and get his opinion if you want.
HA! Um… maybe not your dad.
Wow wow wow. Thanks so much for that, Heather. Absolutely marvelous!
Thank you so much, Emily! MWAH!
Talk about fluid bonding…
Daddy, you are the BEST. Thank you for making me laugh (and cry – in the good way) every day. I adore you to the tips of your toes.
Every time I think I might have it all figured out, I read something like this. Fascinating read. I love getting the wild ride from your emotions, Heather, and I love that I can picture both of your smiles. Hugs!
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