The “Do To Me” list arrived on a sweltering October day when I was irritated with a client and hating living in a place where it was hot and humid in the damn fall. The brain behind the kinky to do list came from a delectable man hundreds of miles away. We had flirted for years yet remained on opposite sides of the country. Words like “what if” peppered our conversations, but our physical paths had never crossed. Recently he reached out and asked, what if we actually did something about this attraction? He was in a relationship and our physical distance remained, but I couldn’t stop thinking about it. What would we do if we actually got our hands on one another?
Soon after that flirty text, I received the “Do To Me” to-do list.
Some ideas to inspire you:
– When we meet I want to fuck you, conventionally, just as a way to say Hello. Start with doggy and with missionary, pull the condom off my dick and rub my cum into your tits.
– I want us to masturbate in front of each other, and I want to masturbate you with a vibrator.
– I want to bend you over the hotel bed and spank your ass for being so dirty.
– I want to tie your hands behind your back, put you in a spoon, and then slowly put my dick in your ass.
– I want to choke you and slap you during sex.
– I want you to blow me and I want to cum in your mouth.
– I want you to give me a handjob and I want to cum all over your face.
– I want to handcuff you to a bed and fist you.
– I want to whip you
– I want to take you to the beach and fuck you in public, but I don’t want you to scream.
– I want to tie you down to a chair so that you can’t touch yourself and make you watch me blow and got blown by another guy, fuck and get fucked by another guy.
– Then I want to untie you and let you join in.
– I want gentle morning sex.
– I want you to lick my nipples and touch my dick.
– I want to whip you and teach me the best way to whip you.
– I want us to be naked for 48 hours straight. After the clothes come off they stay off, and that time is dedicated strictly for pain and pleasure.
– I want to lick your asshole.
– I want to eat your pussy and fuck you with a vibrator.
– I want to pull your hair.
– I want to pee on you in the shower.
– I want to wake up with you riding my morning wood.
– I want you to date a woman and be happy, then bring her to me so so we can enjoy a threeway once a week.
– At the end of the night I want to tie myself to you and cuddle, and kiss. I want to fall asleep inside you
I had never received an email like this–so open, so full of lust and desire for me. It made my heart race and my pussy throb. I put my phone on silent and went directly to my bedroom to satisfy the aching need between my thighs. A masturbation break midday was exactly what I needed, and even though fisting was one of my limits, I read and re-read that list.
I had always been a proponent masturbation, mutual and otherwise. This list of things he wished to do to me left me unsettled and needful. I felt greedy. I wanted to be touched like that, consumed with hands, lips, and mouth. I wanted the contrasts, tender, and rough. And I wanted it more than for a brief weekend.
I wanted. No, needed.
After much soul-searching, the idea occurred to me that I was enamored with this fantasy list because I wanted it in a real life guy. Perhaps it was time for me to be open to the idea of dating.
*deep breath* No, I’m not panicking. You’re panicking.
I had avoided any thought of actual commitment for the better part of a year. The idea of investing in someone to share this kind of raunchy, dirty, kinky sex and then the regular, everyday intimacies usually had me running for the hills. But this list… this list had me thinking of possibilities beyond the safe masturbatory confines of my four-poster bed.
Maybe I was ready for something real.